Sound of You by Drew Gulliver

Sound of You is a song that I mostly wrote within the first year of my marriage. I remember just watching my husband move around our small apartment, listening to his movements and his voice. I remember being so happy that we got to be together for the rest of our lives and that I got to enjoy all of the little things that I like about him forever. I believe that love is an action and a choice every single day. I believe that it’s important to be IN love with your person, to actively choose to love your person, and to LIKE your person. My choice of the word “like” was very intentional in this song. If I don’t like all of the little things about my husband, then it would make loving him feel like a chore.

As I sat there appreciating my husband’s existence, my mind fluttered back to a moment in time when I almost broke up with him. I was not in a good place at all when we started dating. I was not the person that I wanted to be. In fact, I’m not entirely sure that I recognized who I was at all. We started dating in high school and I was the one who initially pursued Tyler, for no other reason than just to play the game. He really didn’t like me at all at first. I’m pretty sure he’s told me multiple times that he thought I was an overachieving nerd. When Tyler and I first spent time together outside of school, it was like everything in my world fell away. We both didn’t expect to fall in love that night, but something in me knew that I would marry the man laughing too much and doing a headstand in my parent’s basement. Of course I joined him by showing off my break dancing skills. Which obviously warranted more laughter if you know anything about me and my lack of coordination. We fell hard and fast for each other and I was SCARED. I was so afraid of his unconditional love for me that I almost ran. I was in a place where I didn’t even believe that I was worth that kind of love. He proved me wrong, and he’s continued to prove me wrong every single day since then. So, that’s where the line, “Sweet girl, don’t run away”, came from.

The chorus,”you look at me like a magic symphony”, is inspired by the way that he looks at me in those extra special milestone moments. His eyes widen and his normal grumpy old man demeanor softens in certain moments where I can tell that he is mentally putting me up on a pedestal. When I sang to him the first time. When I walked down the aisle at our wedding. Right after I gave birth to our daughters. Those are just a few of the times that I’ve been graced with this “look” from him. As if he’s I’m a magic symphony.

The next two verses were actually written this past week. As I sat at the piano in our home, remembering myself writing the previous lyrics at the beginning of our marriage, I was inspired to write about where we’ve gone since then. How we’ve made the best of every season together, both figuratively and literally, by dancing in the moonlight and singing in the sunlight. That stanza is about the active day in and day outs of marriage. Being together through absolutely everything and being willing to change your plans every single day in order to be considerate towards their plans. My husband is the worst decision maker. So, to be honest, when I sing the line “we can do whatever you have planned” I’m thinking about all of the times that I tell him that I want to do something that I know he wants to do just so we can make a decision and get on with it. He never makes a decision if I’m not completely on board. It took me a while to realize that. Because of this, he almost never got anything that he wanted. We would never go out to eat where he wanted, we would never do the activities that he wanted to do, we would never watch what he wanted to watch on TV. So I started lying about what I wanted every once in a while so that we could do what he wanted to do, or what he had planned. Most of these decisions are about food if I’m honest. I can’t even imagine how many times I will ask, “What do you want for dinner?”, by the time that I’m 80 years old.

“Even the smallest bird makes the biggest shadow/Even the small things you do, make my heart melt into you” is Tyler’s favorite verse. It honestly might be mine too because of the everyday truth that it speaks. The little things matter. They matter when being done and they matter when being appreciated. The little things have a huge effect, they cast a big “shadow”. My heart melts for the little things. They make up the big picture. My husband is someone that I absolutely love doing life with. NOT just someone that I love going through the milestones with. Like I said before, I have to like him in order to love him… and I do so like him.

 
I like the sound of you
I like the beat you move
I like your love letters
I like your heart, light as a feather

I like the sound of you
I like the tone you use
When you say
Sweet girl, don’t run away

Come dear, come on, come here
I want to see you up close

You look, you look at me
Like I’m a magic symphony
You look, you look at me
Like I’m a magic symphony
And I’m playing as loud as can be

Let’s dance in the moonlight
And sing in the sunlight
Read in the winter
And play in the summer
Just don’t let go of my hand
We can do whatever you have planned

Even the smallest bird
Makes the biggest shadow
Even the small things you do
Make my heart melt into you

When

You look, you look at me
Like I’m a magic symphony
You look, you look at me
Like I’m a magic symphony
And I’m playing as loud as can be
And I’m playing as loud as can be

I like the sound of you
I like the beat you move
I like your love letters
I like your heart, light as a feather

You look, you look at me
Like I’m a magic symphony


Author: Drew Gulliver

A young wife and mom with a love of making home feel like home and food taste like happiness who spends her free time singing way too loudly in her kitchen or engulfed in a good game.

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